Dear T.
I've come to realise, waiting and hopin and wishin and thinkin about US is not goin' to change one single little tiny thing of what has happened between us.
Deep down, I MISS YOU. i miss you so fuckin' much that when i miss a second of not thinkin' bout you, i miss you even more.
I'm not hooked, don't ever ever think that i'm hooked on you. It may seem like it.. but I'm getting through my days and smiles.
It's hard you know, to let go. It really is, as hard as I am trying to hold on to you, is like trying to hold on for nothin'. I've had hope, I've been patient, I've been wishin on stars, I've constantly been thinkin' about the WHAT IFS.
But you know what, I really don't deserve this... I feel like out of all those good things you done for me, you was just gettin ready to shoot me down.
But then again, I am so thankful and so grateful to have met such a person like you, you've helped me through my downs in so many ways and I love you for that. You made me smile and we have so many memories that I will never ever forget.
If only I could have let go as easily as you did. Because, the situation I'm in now, I'm totally lost. I don't know what to say to people, when I say I'm fine.. am I really? I lost myself a truly great angel because of an idea which never worked. I'm so sorry for all the things I've done to you... I'm sorry that I couldn't have been a better friend... and I'm sorry that things has turned out the way it has...
But I'm sorry because I have a life to live aswell... and your shadow in my life isn't helpin me... LOL it sounds like you've died or somethin'.. (touch wood!) anyways.. I got life to live. I can't miss you. I gotta miss other people too you know. :)
So, T. my cute soljah boy. Keep that head up. Goodbye.
Love Mimilicious .x
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