RJ HELTON. - Missing Me.
It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life
And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me..#
J HOLIDAY - Fly
I know people change but I hate we've changed.
And its killing me trying to figure out where we are.
Cause it aint the same, girl I'll take the blame.
And I'm willing to take this chance that you feel we've traveled too far.
Lord knows I wanna keep you, life without you I just can't see it.
But sometimes you gotta let love be what it's gonna be.
I'ma let you fly and pray you come back to me cause I do believe.
If I let you fly then you fly back, then it was meant to be.
So fly, fly, fly, fly..#
AVRIL LAVIGNE - When you're gone
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you..#
BOBBY TINSLEY - Time
I got time
If my time is spent waiting on you
Then I got time
And I'm never going anywhere
As long as you love me then
I got time
And I'm gonna be waiting on you
Then I got time
And I'm never going anywhere..#
FRANKIE J - Drivin' Myself Insane
Why... did I have to fall in love with you?
(¿Cómo me haces falta tú?)
When I know without you I can't function no more
And you,.. you'll never look at me the same
You know it's really drivin' me insane
When I know without you I can't function
(¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) ..#
DESTINY'S CHILD - Emotion
It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight..#
UTADA HIKARU - First Love
the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about
tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you
you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song...#
Too Lost In You. x
Sunday, 21 June 2009
He's all I want ... times infinity. x
I've got time, if my time's spent waiting on you. x
Throughout out it all, throughout everything we've been through, I just can't and I stubbornly won't let him go for nothing. I don't want to && even if I have to hurt forever, i won't leave him behind.
If memories are the only things I can cherish between us, I hope someday, that there will be a day, not only one, but a lifetime where we both can create as many happy && sad memories as possible.
He's the guy, I'd never thought he'll leave, the guy I could always run to, the guy that has that sweet spot for me, just for me. The guy who's sweet, but doesn't like to show much. The guy who has aspirations and loves to have fun. The guy that I need and want in my life. The guy that makes me smile big grins whenever I see him. The guy that I could talk to about ANYTHING and the guy I can trust with all my heart. The only guy, that I could honestly say I love you with my whole entire heart. x
If one day, you happen to read this. If you only knew what I'm going through, a life without you has too many dead ends T. && I need you to hold my hand to make a corner.
I love you T. x
Throughout out it all, throughout everything we've been through, I just can't and I stubbornly won't let him go for nothing. I don't want to && even if I have to hurt forever, i won't leave him behind.
If memories are the only things I can cherish between us, I hope someday, that there will be a day, not only one, but a lifetime where we both can create as many happy && sad memories as possible.
He's the guy, I'd never thought he'll leave, the guy I could always run to, the guy that has that sweet spot for me, just for me. The guy who's sweet, but doesn't like to show much. The guy who has aspirations and loves to have fun. The guy that I need and want in my life. The guy that makes me smile big grins whenever I see him. The guy that I could talk to about ANYTHING and the guy I can trust with all my heart. The only guy, that I could honestly say I love you with my whole entire heart. x
If one day, you happen to read this. If you only knew what I'm going through, a life without you has too many dead ends T. && I need you to hold my hand to make a corner.
I love you T. x
I know that people change but I hate how we've changed. x
Another Letter To You. X
I would be lying if I said I don't need you, that I hate you && that you were a waste of time. I would be lying if I said I was okay without you and I'll meet someone like you. But without you, my life doesn't get any brighter because you took away my sunshine without knowing it.
If you still know me, then you know that I rarely feel the way I'm feeling now, I don't express how I feel and my pride stops me from doing that. But if I have to lose my pride, give up things for another chance of seeing you and being with you again, I'd do anything.
Because T, I don't feel right without you. And if what I'm feeling is wrong, I dont want to be right, cos seriously... you're on my mind twenty four seven.
I know it's hard for me to be one of these girls who get cheesy and all sorts, but I truly mean what I say. I don't know what else to do, or think. You've probably forgotten about me, but I havent forgotten about you. Not one bit. I deleted your number, only to stop me from contacting you.. because if I did, I know I'd only be even more hurt by your cold reactions..
Finally, I miss you to the point that all I can do is miss you 100%. And if I could tell you, silly of me to do so, that I love you. Throughout everything we've been through. I love you T. I honestly do. x
Love, Mimi. x
I would be lying if I said I don't need you, that I hate you && that you were a waste of time. I would be lying if I said I was okay without you and I'll meet someone like you. But without you, my life doesn't get any brighter because you took away my sunshine without knowing it.
If you still know me, then you know that I rarely feel the way I'm feeling now, I don't express how I feel and my pride stops me from doing that. But if I have to lose my pride, give up things for another chance of seeing you and being with you again, I'd do anything.
Because T, I don't feel right without you. And if what I'm feeling is wrong, I dont want to be right, cos seriously... you're on my mind twenty four seven.
I know it's hard for me to be one of these girls who get cheesy and all sorts, but I truly mean what I say. I don't know what else to do, or think. You've probably forgotten about me, but I havent forgotten about you. Not one bit. I deleted your number, only to stop me from contacting you.. because if I did, I know I'd only be even more hurt by your cold reactions..
Finally, I miss you to the point that all I can do is miss you 100%. And if I could tell you, silly of me to do so, that I love you. Throughout everything we've been through. I love you T. I honestly do. x
Love, Mimi. x
Friday, 5 June 2009
Peak Point of a Breakdown
I can't take it anymore. I just can't pretend that everything is okay when it isn't. I shouldn't have to lie about how I'm feelin' and cover up how I feel. I feel LOST. DISTRAUGHT and seriously just taken over by the verge of GIVING UP.
I'm going crazy. Going mad. I don't know what to do or I don't know who to turn to.
I don't say more than 2 words at a go and its hard to keep a conversation. I just can't seem to want to let people in. I don't want to know what's going on. I'm not bothered about anything. I'm fallin' into this deep place where I can't see the bottom. So how am I supposed to get myself back up?
Every minute, I'm sheddin' those tiny tears because I don't know what to say or do anymore. No. The world is not against me, nor has it given up on me. But why do I feel like I've given up on myself?
It's this SCENE. i need to change it. I need to get away. I don't want to be here. I just want to get away. far away. far far far away. I want to leave && be forgotten. x
Not in the mood to type.
I'm going crazy. Going mad. I don't know what to do or I don't know who to turn to.
I don't say more than 2 words at a go and its hard to keep a conversation. I just can't seem to want to let people in. I don't want to know what's going on. I'm not bothered about anything. I'm fallin' into this deep place where I can't see the bottom. So how am I supposed to get myself back up?
Every minute, I'm sheddin' those tiny tears because I don't know what to say or do anymore. No. The world is not against me, nor has it given up on me. But why do I feel like I've given up on myself?
It's this SCENE. i need to change it. I need to get away. I don't want to be here. I just want to get away. far away. far far far away. I want to leave && be forgotten. x
Not in the mood to type.
Sunday, 31 May 2009
headstart to a bright life. :)
the intensity of wantin' to let go isn't helpin' but the thought of lettin' go is becomin' more convincin' by the second..
It's complicated trying to be myself... my mind works in a crazy way, trying to find answers for everythin'.. havin' that negative & weirdly positive optimistic look to life makes me ten times the weird person I truly am.
But as much as I think about it, typing it all down isn't really going to crack the code to how my mind works, it's just the way it is.
Few weeks/months ago, I was under a dark grey cloud, and you know what that means right... NEGATIVE. && to feel that way is surely a difficult explanation when feelin' down has no cure when there is no answer.
But after realization, and probably a bump in the head, you realise that time is tickin' and people who are there for you, are just put there because of fate, and when they leave you it hurts, not "it can hurt".. IT HURTS. Because of all those lovin' memories that you share between them is the only thing that makes you hate the fact that memories is all you ever have left with the people you loved and makes you love the fact that the memories you had can never ever be erased within your heart.
That's exactly what I mean, the negative & positive clashing, if I can find reason for both sides then where exactly do I stand. I can't seem to take sides for anything, or anyone. It's just not my nature. I don't judge. I used to because I didn't understand the meanin' of prejudice.
Anyways, the more I think about it, the more I fall in love with it, I'm MIMI. the girl who can stand her ground, isn't afraid to let down her guard ONCE in a while.. the one who's mature but fun and crazy at the same time. The one who knows right from wrong, doing the things that she WANTS to do and supporting all the people that she loves and TRULY loves with all her heart even if they let her down. The one who has those mad bitchfits because of a reason that she can sleep off. The one that is there for the people that need her, the one that doesn't want to burden all of her friends/family in sorrow that she's going through because SHE KNOWS she can get over it herself.. the one who just waits JUST incase they might show up.. the one who can be upset, lost, lonely inside and hurt.. but still manages to pull a brave face outside. The one who laughs at almost everything that she remembers that's funny..
I know that all those people who have left my life, my storybook, left because of fate, because it was where our journey stopped, ended or even paused for unanswered and undiscovered reasons. But lookin' forward is the new trend of lookin' back. xx
Keepin' MY HEAD up. :)
Lovin me. Mimiilicious BABYYYYYYYYY. X
It's complicated trying to be myself... my mind works in a crazy way, trying to find answers for everythin'.. havin' that negative & weirdly positive optimistic look to life makes me ten times the weird person I truly am.
But as much as I think about it, typing it all down isn't really going to crack the code to how my mind works, it's just the way it is.
Few weeks/months ago, I was under a dark grey cloud, and you know what that means right... NEGATIVE. && to feel that way is surely a difficult explanation when feelin' down has no cure when there is no answer.
But after realization, and probably a bump in the head, you realise that time is tickin' and people who are there for you, are just put there because of fate, and when they leave you it hurts, not "it can hurt".. IT HURTS. Because of all those lovin' memories that you share between them is the only thing that makes you hate the fact that memories is all you ever have left with the people you loved and makes you love the fact that the memories you had can never ever be erased within your heart.
That's exactly what I mean, the negative & positive clashing, if I can find reason for both sides then where exactly do I stand. I can't seem to take sides for anything, or anyone. It's just not my nature. I don't judge. I used to because I didn't understand the meanin' of prejudice.
Anyways, the more I think about it, the more I fall in love with it, I'm MIMI. the girl who can stand her ground, isn't afraid to let down her guard ONCE in a while.. the one who's mature but fun and crazy at the same time. The one who knows right from wrong, doing the things that she WANTS to do and supporting all the people that she loves and TRULY loves with all her heart even if they let her down. The one who has those mad bitchfits because of a reason that she can sleep off. The one that is there for the people that need her, the one that doesn't want to burden all of her friends/family in sorrow that she's going through because SHE KNOWS she can get over it herself.. the one who just waits JUST incase they might show up.. the one who can be upset, lost, lonely inside and hurt.. but still manages to pull a brave face outside. The one who laughs at almost everything that she remembers that's funny..
I know that all those people who have left my life, my storybook, left because of fate, because it was where our journey stopped, ended or even paused for unanswered and undiscovered reasons. But lookin' forward is the new trend of lookin' back. xx
Keepin' MY HEAD up. :)
Lovin me. Mimiilicious BABYYYYYYYYY. X
there's never a right time to say goodbye.. x
Dear T.
I've come to realise, waiting and hopin and wishin and thinkin about US is not goin' to change one single little tiny thing of what has happened between us.
Deep down, I MISS YOU. i miss you so fuckin' much that when i miss a second of not thinkin' bout you, i miss you even more.
I'm not hooked, don't ever ever think that i'm hooked on you. It may seem like it.. but I'm getting through my days and smiles.
It's hard you know, to let go. It really is, as hard as I am trying to hold on to you, is like trying to hold on for nothin'. I've had hope, I've been patient, I've been wishin on stars, I've constantly been thinkin' about the WHAT IFS.
But you know what, I really don't deserve this... I feel like out of all those good things you done for me, you was just gettin ready to shoot me down.
But then again, I am so thankful and so grateful to have met such a person like you, you've helped me through my downs in so many ways and I love you for that. You made me smile and we have so many memories that I will never ever forget.
If only I could have let go as easily as you did. Because, the situation I'm in now, I'm totally lost. I don't know what to say to people, when I say I'm fine.. am I really? I lost myself a truly great angel because of an idea which never worked. I'm so sorry for all the things I've done to you... I'm sorry that I couldn't have been a better friend... and I'm sorry that things has turned out the way it has...
But I'm sorry because I have a life to live aswell... and your shadow in my life isn't helpin me... LOL it sounds like you've died or somethin'.. (touch wood!) anyways.. I got life to live. I can't miss you. I gotta miss other people too you know. :)
So, T. my cute soljah boy. Keep that head up. Goodbye.
Love Mimilicious .x
I've come to realise, waiting and hopin and wishin and thinkin about US is not goin' to change one single little tiny thing of what has happened between us.
Deep down, I MISS YOU. i miss you so fuckin' much that when i miss a second of not thinkin' bout you, i miss you even more.
I'm not hooked, don't ever ever think that i'm hooked on you. It may seem like it.. but I'm getting through my days and smiles.
It's hard you know, to let go. It really is, as hard as I am trying to hold on to you, is like trying to hold on for nothin'. I've had hope, I've been patient, I've been wishin on stars, I've constantly been thinkin' about the WHAT IFS.
But you know what, I really don't deserve this... I feel like out of all those good things you done for me, you was just gettin ready to shoot me down.
But then again, I am so thankful and so grateful to have met such a person like you, you've helped me through my downs in so many ways and I love you for that. You made me smile and we have so many memories that I will never ever forget.
If only I could have let go as easily as you did. Because, the situation I'm in now, I'm totally lost. I don't know what to say to people, when I say I'm fine.. am I really? I lost myself a truly great angel because of an idea which never worked. I'm so sorry for all the things I've done to you... I'm sorry that I couldn't have been a better friend... and I'm sorry that things has turned out the way it has...
But I'm sorry because I have a life to live aswell... and your shadow in my life isn't helpin me... LOL it sounds like you've died or somethin'.. (touch wood!) anyways.. I got life to live. I can't miss you. I gotta miss other people too you know. :)
So, T. my cute soljah boy. Keep that head up. Goodbye.
Love Mimilicious .x
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