you leave the past, to move on with the future.

Welcome, 2010.

Life's definately different..

I begin the year with my boyfriend, leaving behind the people I thought that would never ever leave my side...

I can't even put it into words in what I'm feeling... It's like, I don't feel comfortable with who I am or where I am, I don't feel me anymore.
It's like, I'm living in a strangers body. Crazy is what it seems, but I want to find my middle ground, and feel the warmth inside of me again.

It seemed that the previous year had went by so quick, but if that's what it seemed, how come the worst moments replay in slow motion through my head? I miss Tolga & Jason. Almost 3/4 years. Gone. Finished. "We used to talk, now we act like we hardly know eachother". =(

&& then there's my FIRST for MOSTthings Boyfriend, Philip Quach.
I thank him so much for his willingless to be with me, his endless love and care for me after all I put him through. He inspires me, to fight for what I love, to take chances, and most of all, learning to trust.
I don't know how lucky I am, to have a guy that wants me as much as he does. I love him for all that he is, and I'd hate to rub salt into the wound that I never thought I had done. I want to give him all my heart but... I'm so scared to jump. So so so so scared. I love him, I trust him and I want him, but I don't know if I can really do it. Cos when I'm falling, who's going to catch me?

s a v e m e.