chase the dream, but how?

have you ever been stuck in your life, where everything isn't going right, and you don't know where exactly you're heading to in life?

It's like your heart is trying to tell you something, something you desire to know, but you can't understand what your heart is telling you. I'm a really complicated girl, but my heart believes I'm just an out of the ordinary simple minded girl. I do admit, I make simple, complicated. Which is a disastrous flaw I own, and because I have that, my mind is on a 24/7 rollercoaster.

I am a worrier, no not a WARRIOR, I worry alot, about things that doesn't even concern me! I do that a lot actually.

But my dreams seem so out of reach, and I'm just wondering how in the world am I going to succeed in them. I can't tell myself it's impossible, because that's giving up. It is possible for me to, but my heart only wants one dream while I want to succeed in another.

Deep within my heart, it desires, craves and wants me to create another beating heart. Yes, in other words, have a baby. It neglects the negative opinions about my age, my status, my occupation, my friends, my social life and my education. It's so hard to explain that to anyone, because all they do is talk me out of it, well try.
Not every woman wishes for independence, I think the greatest thing for a woman is to be able to start a new life. And I want that.

Okay, my mind is disfunctioning, because it's getting clouded by a load of crap. :) loads to tell, but not much to type. x