Drivin' myself Insane.. <3

So is this it?
Should I give up and walk away from you? What happens if I want to come back to you one day? Would you welcome me with open arms.. or are you going to leave me alone and push me away with all the excuses in the world?

Don't tell me what I want to hear.. tell me the truth.. Even if I cry, tell me how you feel. Tell me if you want me, tell me if you dont.. don't lie and hurt me later on. I know the answer, I just want to hear it from you... I don't want anyone else to tell me how you feel.. I want you.
Make it clear to me.. make me realise I'm wasting time and there's no point.. put it in my head you're not worth waiting for.. getting hurt for.. make me realise that there's better than you.
Make me realise that there will never be a US again. Just tell me how you feel..
I bet you don't even realise my feelings for you.. I bet you forgot all about me and moved on like snapping your fingers. Do you even remember the memories we had? Even if you did, I bet you tried to forget it.. I'm nothing to you right? I'm just a girl. But how comes, even if I think that you see me as "just a girl", I'll always see you as the one I actually want to fall in love with? .. Or wait.. have I fallen already? Too deep that I just can't understand why you don't feel the same way? No matter how high I climb to get out of love for you.. I fall to the bottom whenever I think of you, and how we used to be.
Every night, as weird as it seems.. I try my best to look for that shiniest star and make that one wish. Are you going to be the one that makes it come true? Or are you going to be the one who breaks my hopes on all the wishes I've made in the sky?
Posting a blog, isn't even half what I feel, it's just a fraction of what I feel. It doesn't even limit the sky.
No matter how much I want to tell you how I feel, I become MUTE that I can't even bring myself to even saying one word to you.
Isit Love or just an Illusion? Isit Love or isit just Lust? Do you remember me and how we used to be?
Do you still think of me? Or isit me only thinking of you?

I'm so lost... I need you to tell me.. tell me .. x