The Start of the New Blog <3

Much love to hazeL for introducing this site to me <3
Maybe on here, I'll have the chance to express the way I see me.. and how I feel and what I think.. I'll probably create nicknames aswell, so you nosy parkers won't know too much.

Anyways, how was my day?
School was dreadful.. mad moodswings.. and thinking of jc* too too much. I just can't stop thinking about him? I miss him terribly =[ ... I wonder if I'll ever be the girl who will cry for him? Shut down my pride and tell him how I feel.. not be afraid of rejection.. not be afraid to cry infront of him.. break down and shout at him for making me feel this way.. Make him understand that he's the only one that's ever got me so hooked onto something. I don't even know what that something is.

"I Wanna Know What Loves Like
I Never Really Been In Love
Like Romeo And Juliet
Cupid Doesnt Know Me Yet..#"

I know me and him = impossible. It's never gonna ever ever ever be the same again. You know what.. I know it's impossible.. but what makes it so hard for me to let go? What makes me hold on to something that isn't even there? Why am I still wishing there could be a second chance? Do I deserve a second chance? Sometimes, I wonder if it's because, what would have happened if we lasted longer? What if I told you I fell for you deeply? What if I told you, "I've never felt this way before" ? Would you put me on lock? Would you have treated me with more love?
I'm just contemplating, why me? Why did you choose me? Out of all the girls in the world, you chose me in that moment of time?... And even now.. What Am I To You? Do you see me differently... or will you always see me as the girl you fell for? Do you look through your eyes and see me as the girl who you could talk to, or do you see me 'just a girl i know'... I regret it sometimes you know.. I felt so broken when we lost everything in this risk.. Hmm.. Nevermind.. I guess it was just meant to be right? <3 Hopefully someday you'll realise just how I felt at THIS moment of time..

Dedicated to you..