Feeling different. x

I wish I knew the real you. I wish you opened up to me so I'll know the real you. I wish I was the only one who knew when you was down so I could be the only person to put that smile back on your face. I wish I'd be the first person you'd call when you've got either good or bad news.

Will I ever be the one?

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I'm so frustrated with this life. I love it, no doubt. But the people a part of it. Gets me sooooo confused and aggravated about it. Like the unpredictable. If I end up cutting people out, don't blame me. I'm sick and tired of pretending to be nice to people I sincerely don't like. There's no point at all of wasting my energy of being fake. It's not like I'm going to be evil or turn into a wicked witch just because I don't like them.. I just won't talk to them. They can bitch as much as they like. It's understandable that they do. But like... who's bothered about that? They can bullshit as much as they rarseclart want because whatever makes them feel better isn't doing much damage to me.. unfortunately. And... they shouldn't get too excited if I say something back.. I won't go down to their levels.. I rise above it alie.. I don't need to say anything.. because all has been said you gemme. I don't shit stir. I don't give a shit.
I don't understand how people can bitch nicely about other people and still be so friendly with the people they just bitched about. I would feel so AKWARD talking to them. That's something I can't do. That's BULLOCKS. hahahaha. If their talent is being fake, then good for them. They deserve the OSCAR award for being the no.1 fake friend in the world.. Is this the Barbie world or the REAL WORLD?
People like that, get me mad, 1. Why would you be fake in the first place? 2. Are you being real or are you being fake now? 3. Who are you? and last of all... What is the fcuking point?
I don't get it. Wasting energy, being nice to people you like. Wait. Do you like me? LOL. Or am I someone you want to carry on bitching about in the long run?
Don't take me for a dickhead. Because people who really do that, should take a look at themselves. They're lifeless. They need a life. Is this really their life? They really need a reality check..
Bitch bitch bitch. Oh please. Get a life bitch.